so today was an ok day…went to school and watched leave it to beaver lol…that lil kid is silly hahaha ummm hung out with my mama hoping she gets her job soooon!!! o yea my mom got laid off bout 3 weeks ago for the dumbest thing but she got hired at a new hospital :D anyways yea im hoping she starts soon because if not we can’t pay the rent :( anyways besides that i came home and took a looong 3 hour nap lol…did or tired to do my math homework and now just trying to keep busy so my mind doesn’t wonder and i begin to think about him (ex bf) which is hopeless because i think about him every single freakin minute :( even if im dead tired and just want to go to sleep i’ll dream about him…..ugh it sucks but the weird thing is i never met him lol…yes it was a long distance relationship that lasted a year!! yes a whole year and too alot of people it seems dumb or whatever but to me it wasn’t i had never had a long distance relationship so in the beginning i admit i was like blah about it just thought it was gonna be like a week thing and then we would just stop talkin but NO lol we ended up really “connecting” and we got along lol and i guess its true that opposites attract lol. He is rocker/goth and has that crude since of humor and i’ve always been that big dorky person that even if im dying inside i love laughing and making others laugh. he always said i brought out the “good/sweet” side of him lol i still don’t believe he ever had a sweet side :( anyways he was always sort of a jerk and made me feel bad and cry but at the same time he could make me feel soooo good about myself..idk what it was but i knew (and don’t ask me how) that i loved him from the very first time we said “i love you” to each other….i always meant it and idk about him :( ugh now im all emotional so i’ll finish this little story later :( ……
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